Sometimes you forget. Well, I’ll never truly forget but things slip by the wayside. As I clean up yogurt off the wall for the umpteenth time or get Loen to leave her clothes on or my favorite – try to get Derby in his own bed versus ours. I feel overwhelmed and hassled by the mess, bickering and constant “NO!” I hear everyday. I forget about the hours spent hovering over their incubators. Wishing they would stop riding the vent or for no residuals after a feed. I forget about whispering the words to “You are my sunshine” as I touched a tiny hand. Crying because I wasn’t allowed to touch their hand.
When I’m crabby and think oh my God did they poop again or why did Loen just pour the brush water from painting over her brother, I need to stop and think this was all we ever wanted. To hear their cry, pray they would walk and see. That they would live.
Sometimes you just need a reminder.
Oh my god are they licking the mirror I just cleaned?? Deep breaths Hava, remember, remember, remember…..
6 responses so far ↓
1 Laurie // Aug 13, 2010 at 7:10 am
So you had me crying one minute and then laughing the next ( yes, I’m very sensitive today
). Your an amazing writer Hava!
2 Aunt T // Aug 13, 2010 at 7:32 am
I remember…….. You all are so blessed
3 Tadd // Aug 13, 2010 at 8:00 am
Every time they are screaming and driving me nuts, I try to remember that we would have done anything to hear them crying when they were vented. It was the saddest thing to see them crying with no sound.
The other thing that I remember on a regular basis is the size of their heads when they were born, which was about the size of the bottom of the coffee cup that I take to work each day. I actually traced the bottom of my cup yesterday when you sent the e-mail about the 25 weekers just so I could visualize it a little better. When I look at them today, it is unfathomable that they were that tiny.
4 Michelle, Brent, Grant and Gwen // Aug 16, 2010 at 12:15 pm
hugs. love this post.
5 Angela // Aug 18, 2010 at 4:01 pm
Thank you for that reminder…and validating me. Mine are almost 7. I have been following your story since I heard about the birth of your twins from a fellow twin mom. In a way reading your blog is how I “never forget”.
I too LOVE your writing!
6 Jayne // Aug 24, 2010 at 7:08 am
Wow they are so pretty! You will have so many stories to tell their kids.
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